So I don’t like to stop before a job I thought I could do in one jaunt- is done. I started at about 10 pm. It is now quarter to 1 am and I have to pause. I am hopelessly getting nowhere.
Yes I am doing some wildly tricky shit over here…..
Some refer to it as as difficult as climbing a mountain. Some as tricky as getting out of Costco with one idem and only spending 7 dollars on it.
I know impossible right!!
Well if you want to be so impressed with my great yet incomplete feet let me tell you what I am attempting
Ok so
tonight
all
by
myself
I tried..
…
to
put
up ..
curtain rods
Yes!!
I know!!!
CURTAIN RODS!!
That’s a HUGE thing!
ok So all kidding aside I have been very closed minded about drills and power tools and I need to get better and more skilled in this area. So I thought this would be good and I could get over my fear and do a good job and it cant be that hard right? Really its like just drilling a couple of screws into a wall. And I dont think it should be.
But honestly every 36 of 37 moves of anything I have tried has failed. If there had been a camera recording me I could become literally so famous for just how thoroughly I sucked at each and every turn. I cant I just cant even.
As I look right now there is one curtain bracket up kind of..
Where the bottom screw is sticking out an inch from the wall and I have no ability to get the screw in deeper or get the screw out.
I just cant I just cant even
I was about to do the same stupid shit on the other side. So even though I hate to give up and I would rather power through and figure it out. I am Stopping for tonight.
So I am going to pick 3 count them 3 Ganesha Songs for us for this chanty day and I am going to chant my ass off in the AM and go to the hardware store and buy screws and anchors and a drill bit in a set I bet they have a set there. Ones made for Plaster walls. Because the bullshit I am trying to put together in order to do this is defiantly not working. Tomorrow I will try again.
And maybe I will be able to do this. Or maybe I will beg and pay my ex husband to do it on Sunday.. Or maybe I will
Well I dont even know. But tonight the comedy needs to end before I loose all respect I have for myself and my intelligence.
I just cant even.
I think this was a time where my closed mindset was protecting me from the shame of doing it as bad as I have been.
But then again Eventually I will have learned something.(s)
Well I already did learn a thing based on something I messed up.
Maybe the sun and Ganesh chants and coffee will make it all make sense.
maybe I will meet the love of my life at the hardware store tomorrow and had I not failed tonight our divine meeting would never have occurred. Maybe I will hang my curtains up on the walls with Duck tape and prayer.
Time will tell
And until next time.
Pray for me
pray for me.
Ganesha is...
The Hindu god the elephant god that we chant to,
pray to,
think of, focus on - as- the emboding the energy of removing obstacles.
Ganesha ironically puts them in our place too though when we need and I feel like
he has been right between me and my drill all night long just putting obstacle
after obstacle. So.. in the morning may he dance with me in removing some.
And let’s see if I can get some curtains hung up.
Oh, yes.
Pray for me.
💖-Gina
Big love from my heart to yours.
